Lessons in Contentment & Letting God Lead

Being an adult is hard! We all know that and sometimes I can't believe I am old enough to be making a mortgage payment and changing a diaper that is my own child's. I know that seems crazy but it's just true some days. Lately I feel like I've been living a season of life that has been stressful and hard. I mean hard is probably too strong because there are definitely people going through truly hard things right now and mine doesn't even compare.

So basically about 10 months ago, Michael and I decided that now was the time to get our house ready to sell so that we could start the process of building our dream home (well our last home) on some family land nearby. Well basically we took all the proper steps to help make that happen but yet here we are...still in the same place. A six month period of having our house listed and trying to keep it as clean as possible while still living our lives and just hoping that the right person would come along and want it. Of course these were all of OUR plans. Obviously God has a different plan in mind. I have no idea what it is but I think it may have something to do with teaching us (well mainly me) about being content.

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There is so much about this house that I am just so sick of. The backyard is a huge downward hill that the kids can't play in. I am sick of dealing with the pool maintenance. The basement is not tall enough. My laundry is downstairs. We only have ONE FEAKING bathroom! It was like the moment we inked the listing papers I was ready to ditch this joint.

But over the last couple of months I think God has been working on me a lot in this area regarding where we live. I have worried and stressed over it enough. It's time to let God take control of the situation and trust that He knows when and where our family needs to be. The truth is this home is special to me and it's cozy and comfortable (for the most part). It's been the vessel to hold me as I became a Mom for the first time and the second time. It's been where we have enjoyed so many precious moments as a young family. The truth is I know that a bigger and better home is not always the best thing or the solution to all your problems. 

So we've decided that listing this Spring again is not what feels right. With Jonah starting Kindergarten in a few short months, we think that keeping our lives simple and settled here and enjoying this time together before he starts school full-time is right. I have just had such a peace over having made this decision together.

I feel like this time has been given to me to grow in trusting God to guide our lives and know that He has a purpose for this time of non-change. In fact, I know He has a purpose as I've already experienced so much peace from letting go of the extra plates I have been trying to balance on my head...and in my mind...and in my heart.